photo credit: my sis
I am easily overwhelmed by the world around me. Whether it’s a crowded room, conflict, speaking or unfamiliar situations, I have discovered my really deep desire to hide. I often long to completely hide myself from the world-I think this is where my tendency towards depression comes in.
I joke about “hiding in my turtle shell” but it’s actually true. Its related to my introversion and also my really low self confidence. It’s this feeling that I am too small and weak, and the world around me is too big and scary. And if I come out I will fall, get hurt, be vulnerable, seen.
But I know that if I want to follow Jesus, I can’t hide.
You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. (Matthew 5:14-15 NIV)
So what am I supposed to do? 🙁 I came across this verse a few days ago:
You are my hiding place and my shield; I hope in your word. (Psalms 119:114 ESV)
You are my hiding place. I can make God my hiding place, and step forward in faith wherever he leads me. You are my shield. He will protect me when I am weak and vulnerable.
Note: As much as I love hiding though, there is also something beautiful about being seen, valued and loved. By friends and family, and also God. 🙂
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