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Wanting to hide

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photo credit: my sis

I am easily overwhelmed by the world around me. Whether it’s a crowded room, conflict, speaking or unfamiliar situations, I have discovered my really deep desire to hide. I often long to completely hide myself from the world-I think this is where my tendency towards depression comes in.

I joke about “hiding in my turtle shell” but it’s actually true. Its related to my introversion and also my really low self confidence. It’s this feeling that I am too small and weak, and the world around me is too big and scary. And if I come out I will fall, get hurt, be vulnerable, seen.

But I know that if I want to follow Jesus, I can’t hide.

You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. (‭Matthew‬ ‭5‬:‭14-15‬ NIV)

So what am I supposed to do? 🙁 I came across this verse a few days ago:

You are my hiding place and my shield; I hope in your word. (‭Psalms‬ ‭119‬:‭114‬ ESV)

You are my hiding place. I can make God my hiding place, and step forward in faith wherever he leads me. You are my shield. He will protect me when I am weak and vulnerable.

Note: As much as I love hiding though, there is also something beautiful about being seen, valued and loved. By friends and family, and also God. 🙂

#Ramadan2016 #JesusismyPillar #Day15

 

3 Comments

  1. Ciaran Ciaran

    Thank you for the simple, but poignant, reminder. This is something that I too have struggled and continue to struggle with, so it’s reassuring and encouraging to have the truth so plainly stated.

    • Debbswebb Debbswebb

      You’re 100% welcome Ciaran! Thanks for your encouragement 🙂 I feel like it’s going to be a life-long struggle for me too, dying daily to myself and coming out of hiding for Jesus!

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