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Insecurities about my Imagination

Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.” – John 8:32

Last night, God freed me from my insecurities. Without even realising, I had come to believe deep in the corners of my heart somewhere that my crazy imagination -with almost a complete lack of understanding of how to actually implement my ideas- is useless. Satan get behind Jesus!

I had been feeling super discouraged because every time I have the courage to share my vision for something (which is not often), I would most likely be met with the inevitable question: how do you plan on accomplishing it? And the truth is-I have absolutely no idea. I don’t know. I don’t have a plan. It makes me anxious thinking about it because I’m really not good at that bit. I had believed that because I didn’t have answers- that my ideas were therefore invalid, useless, meaningless, nothing more than words floating around in the atmosphere, like a gust of wind. And so therefore- don’t even bother sharing your ideas or thinking much of them. Just keep it to yourself and try not to get caught up in them-they are a waste of your time. Do something more productive with your life rather than having your head in the clouds-daydreaming about what could happen.

It’s clear that these thoughts are not from God – they are simply lies.  The Father will never discourage his children, he never demeans how he made us. He always encourages us and fills us with hope-not despair. Moreso, why do I need to have all the answers anyway? That’s my pride kicking in thinking that I need to know it all- and worrying what people will think of me. But in fact, it’s ok that I dont! That’s where I can humbly and freely ask for help from others 🙂

That’s why I believe that where we meet our end and our weakness-this is where the body of Christ comes in. We weren’t meant to function as individual body parts surviving and serving Christ on our own. We need each other-I am so aware of this! Without my brothers and sisters, my ideas really do feel useless. But with people who are gifted in different ways, in strategising, in implementing, in organising and coordinating, in leading and administrating, in creating and designing, suddenly the concepts in my head are no longer concepts, but can be crystallised before my very eyes as tangible reality.

And I praise God-because He gives meaning to me-a person that feels meaningless on their own.

heavensI know I am smiling in this picture, but often my dreaming/imagination
simply makes me feel anxious/overwhelmed/alone/sad (lol I have a lot of feels) 😛
I am yet to fully feel secure about how God has made me- a dreamer. To declare…

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful,
    I know that full well.

Psalm 139:14

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